The Year That Was - 2018!
I have not written for the entire year, I have not written since I wrote about the year that was in 2017! At times I have kicked myself for not doing this, at times I have praised myself. Though I didn't write it in my 2017 blog post, I really needed me time, down time, time when I could escape my reality - and I did.
There was once a time I couldn't log into facebook without having over 100 chat messages popping up. There was a time I couldn't walk into a casino without hearing my name, being followed, signing things and - you get the hint. I have anxiety, bad anxiety. I couldn't live like this any longer. I am me, no star, just me. I appreciate the fact that I inspired so many people, so many women in poker and so many men to step up and have the guts to ask me out, chat to me etc.. I appreciate that I was loved, well known and a great marketing tool. In 2017 though I realised that I was being used by other people to make THEM money. My life was bombarded by public and my personal life was difficult. This was my own making, but none the less, I ended it.
2018 was all about personal growth for me. After 15 odd years of being the front line and face on a public level I had to take a breather. I concentrated on my business projects (not as much as I should have, but "whatever", I am ready to pump now!), my relationship with my significant other and many court hearings and cases. I had to work on getting some sort of income back into place after the banning of online poker in Australia - I had a shit of a year at a business level, financial level and so on and so forth.
I traveled a lot in 2018! Melbourne, Sydney, New Caledonia, many U.S. states and of course attended the WSOP doing video for pokernews. In my prior posts you will read that Vegas is my second home, I traveled there only twice this year. I now class it as my home though. Here in Albury, NSW Australia I feel like shit. I have demons here, I feel threatened and I am all but a hermit. During my travels I made some wonderful new poker friends from all around the globe. I also discovered that some people were using me (again), taking advantage of my kindness and in reality were not nice people. I have traveled far and wide and let people cut their own throats along the way as I continue along my path (without them).
It wasn't until 2018 I came to the realisation of what "shit cunts" (Aussie male slang) some people in poker actually are. Personal growth indeed to determine this. There is a snake out there, a woman, she is many peoples worst enemy and using so many people for her own growth. This was the first awful person I had to deal with. Such manipulation and such a pretty face and intellect to use so many of my poker associates. It disgusts me that this is happening, though, on with the show for me and one by one people will realise - with thousands already seeing this. My personal growth included ignoring these kinds of people and again, having them cut their own throats...... A long term friend and associate took part in cutting my S.O's throat by not paying him, another person gone from my life. Where is the honesty and credibility these days? Poker reputation is important, dont be ripping people off!
Positive notes for my year 2018 include my two youngest sons leaving my nest. One is off to uni and was the recipient of three scholarships! That's right! THREE! My daughter came first in her year after exceptional marks in geography and straight A's in English. One of her major projects was based on "The Gambling world" and our current high rollers - so THANK YOU GUYS! Most importantly I developed deeper relationships with those that count.
I have only played one poker tournament all year. Of course I won, the skills will never go. I have written zero strategy articles but many an article on www.womenspokerworld.com - which was put on standby as the subscribers rolled on in! Women's Poker World is BY FAR the largest collective of women in poker now and we are certainly looking forward to a smashing 2018. There are so many competitors out there that claim they are the biggest, the best, the .... ok, you get it. With a measly 400 odd people on our facebook page we look like idiots. We have almost 60,000 checked subscribers. I just love writing that! By 60,000 checked, I mean, all year we have been checking that they are women who play poker. I think starting an international league for them all is on the cards! Thanks to all my lovelies behind the scenes that pushed our name out in this somewhat "undercover operation". We are READY! Get the F out of our way! 2019 is indeed the year for Women in the Poker World!
I also worked on Casino Exploits to prep it for 2019 onslaught. Go sign up free guys and girls.... the content is amazing! Its not my baby but it sure is a site that I will be working hard on because beyond everything else, the gambling world needs it!
That's all I have to say, except I have had some health battles and my fair share of home crisis! That's normal though, isn't it? For me, at least! You can expect to see more songs by me in 2019. More support for the poker community, more live play and a confident Miss ADAMS (my divorce is also finally done). You can also expect to see me come storming through with my huge band of women to take a real stand for women in poker! My beliefs on women in poker vary so very much to other women, but I still believe my help increasing the numbers and supporting them help poker in general - all the way!
I hope you have a happy 2019 and hope your state, country or territory allows you to play online poker before the year ends. Many poker god wishes, Danielle xx
